Stillness and awe

The other morning, Little R was keeping me company while I got ready. He was happily babbling away to himself and playing with some toys while I got dressed, and I tuned out for a bit, concentrating on what I was doing. Noticing that the noise had stopped, I tuned back in to see him sitting still by the window, gazing at the gusty day outside. The sight stopped me in my tracks. It mightn’t sound like a big deal, but when you’re used to an energetic dynamo of a 2-year old circling you constantly, these rare moments of stillness are a sight to behold.


He was so peaceful, so enthralled. I could almost see the cogs turning in his head as he sat and watched.

I couldn’t resist sneaking out of the room to grab my phone and race back to get a few quick photos, which of course ended up disturbing his daydream. In hindsight I should have just stayed still, soaking up the moment, watching him just like he was watching the trees. I can’t remember another time when I’ve witnessed either Little R or his big sister just sit like that and watch the world as it goes by. Such a small thing, but so beautiful to me.


I got down on the floor with Little R and we lay side by side on our tummies, looking out the window and talking about the wind and the leaves on the trees. Then he got up and jumped on to my back. I managed to wriggle him off me and get up to kneel, only to have him crawl underneath me, giggling. I nuzzled into his neck with my nose, making him laugh. And I thought “This. This is being a parent.”

The little things.



Mindful Sunday


Sunday is my favourite day of the week. The week that was is behind us, and if I’ve played my cards right, the necessary weekend housework and socialising has taken place on Saturday. That leaves Sunday for relaxing, reflecting, and looking to the week ahead. Sunday always feels comfortable to me, a day to just be.

I’m looking forward to this week. I feel like all I’ve been doing for months is going to work, going to job interviews, and writing job applications. I’m now enforcing a break on myself and I’m so relieved to have some pressure lifted from my shoulders. This will be a week of taking it slower, revisiting exercise, reading, and catching up on Netflix.

This is also a big week at school for Moose. She’s due to be presented with an art merit award at school assembly on Friday, and I can’t wait to be there with Big R and Little R to cheer her on. And then on Friday night she’ll be going to her first school disco, and I’ll be going to my first school disco as a parent. I’m volunteering purely to spy on the littlies, it’s going to be so cute.

Today I’m going to finish off some odds and ends that I didn’t get to yesterday, and then I might take the kids out for a walk in the sunshine later. The trees are changing, autumn colour is everywhere, and leaves are sprinkled across footpaths and lawns. We’re in long-sleeves and long pants, but there’s no need for scarves and coats just yet.

And that will be it, the weekend complete. Simple, and perfect.



Innocence, curiosity, learning

One morning, at home with just Little R and me….

Shall we go outside before it gets too hot? Ok, put some sunscreen on first. Here you go – face, neck, arms….Pop your hat on. Grab your ball. Let’s go!



Hello dogs! Give them a pat. Gently!

Kick the ball to Mummy? That’s it, good kick! Ready? I’ll kick it to you now….



Ok, let’s go down the steps. Careful, that’s the way, shuffle down backwards. Let’s go and have a look at the (practically bare) veggie patch. Look! There’s the silverbeet, it’s growing tall! And that’s a fig tree. The orange tree looks like it wants some water. Shall we water the garden? We’ll have to fill the watering can….

You want to go over here? Ok, let’s go to the playground. Wanna go on the swings? Ready, I’ll lift you up, one two three – up! Hold on tight. Let’s go! Weeee!

Ok, down the slide now. One two three – goooo! Again? One two three – weeee! Again?



What’s over here? Some flowers, look. Aren’t they lovely. Oh! I just saw a butterfly! There it is! Let’s try and catch it….oh, no, not fast enough. Where did it go? I think it flew away. Bye bye butterfly! I can see some ants though, look at them all! Walking in a line. They’re very fast, aren’t they? There’s so many!



It’s getting a bit hot buddy, might be time for some morning tea. Would you like something to eat? Let’s go inside. That was fun!


Linking up with IBOT at Essentially Jess and Weekend Rewind at Maxabella Loves


Sometimes it feels like I have just as little time to tend to my online life as I do to keep up with my home life.  Just like the housework, it feels like it’s never done.

On any given day I might visit one or all of the following:





Yahoo Mail










And I know for many people, that’s just the tip of the iceberg.  Who has the time for this?

I’ve also signed up for a bunch of things that I just wanted to check out but I don’t actually use – Google+, Evernote, Instapaper, to name a few.


I thought technology was supposed to make life simpler?


Winter / Nothing but time

Over the last couple of months, I’ve read a number of blog posts that have spoken of going slow during the colder weather.  Hibernating for the winter, retreating inside our cosy, warm homes.  Instead of rushing a-mile-a-minute, focussing on warming and nourishing food and drink, spending lazy time with our loved ones, reading, resting, and working on our own desires and projects.  A time to look inwards and care for ourselves, figuring out what we really want, and giving ourselves time.  Everything slowly.

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This theme has mirrored my winter outlook this year.  I’m usually the kind of person to actively seek out a challenge, to constantly be learning, looking for ways to be busy.  Not this year.  Over winter, I’ve taken this slowness under my wing.  There have been times where opportunities have risen in front of me, and I’ve been tempted to embrace them.  But instead I’ve stood back, looked them over, said “No thanks, not now” and walked away.  And it has felt really good, a real relief.

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Instead I’ve been sleeping in until the last possible moment.  Lingering over my morning coffee and toast.  Staying in pyjamas until lunchtime.  Holding Little R and just looking at him, and talking to him.  Listening to the peace and quiet, or the wind, or the rain.  Teaching myself more knitting stitches and techniques, and knitting a new scarf.  Reading.  Tidying up the garden.  Baking with Moose.  Catching up on TV.  Writing in my journal.

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I’m on maternity leave and will be until May next year.  Right now, my only job is to look after my children, primarily Little R.  That is it.  I have no other obligations for that period of time.  My sole purpose is to be a Mum.  And it feels wholesome, it makes me happy.  And it gives me time to pursue the other little creative tidbits that I’ve longed to but hadn’t had the time to.  I won’t ever have this time again, not with Little R, not with any more babies because he is our last.  I have nothing but time, and I plan on embracing it.

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