Things that I fretted about while I lay awake during the early hours tonight:
Cost of childcare arrangements.
Return to work arrangements.
Balancing returning to work with family time, activities, keeping the house and garden under control, getting food on the table at a reasonable time each night….
How stupid it is that we will fork out tens of thousands of dollars over the course of the childcare years, just so I can work. Not to do anything enjoyable, to WORK. I am paying to work!! I don’t even like it, why do I have to pay to do it?!
How annoying it is that on the nights Little R sleeps through (tonight), Moose will wake up and on the nights Moose sleeps through, Little R will wake up. They never sync up. Because life’s just like that, isn’t it?
Will I ever sleep through ever again? Why can’t I get back to sleep once I’m awake?
How bad it must be for my body and mind to constantly be yo-yo-ing between varying levels of sleep from night to night with no consistency.
What would I worry about, and what issues would I have if I didn’t have children?
Whose idea was this whole having-kids thing anyway?!!
Oh look, I have to get up in half an hour to get Moose ready for her first day of preschool.
Another day ahead on 4 hours sleep….